echoes of my past
are screaming at me today
consequences of actions
not intended
living short-sighted
has left me in a vast abyss
drowning in what
might have been
feelings rule my world
and will be the end of it
one more short-sighted move
and that will be
i'm tired of fighting
tired of being told
tired of knowing better
and doing it anyway
it will be my unintended end
the day i'm not paying attention
to the feelings
and i listen for the last time
my mind wants to rule me
it tells me horrible lies
i am so tired of hearing
tired of fighting those feelings
i try to find where the truth is
inside of me
and i don't even know
where to look these days
i'm asked for explanations
and i don't know what to say
except that this is how i feel
what my gut tells me
but it's never good enough
for other people
i don't know if it's
good enough for me either
i keep looking for the answer
and i could tell you a good one
if you ask
but no one really does
i've talked about it ad naseum
and no one wants to hear anyway
so i relinquish myself
and resign
the echoes get louder
time moves around again
in the circle of circumstance
that know me too well
